Corey and i woke up around 5:30. We got up and went to White Plains to run some errands. I don't quite recall what i had to get, but i know it was something of importance. We got back and Amber (his sister) and Bri (her friend) were there waiting for us. It was around 9 at this point. So we get changed and start to get ready to enjoy our bday weekend. Corey went and got food, and i started to make his card. Oh! Speaking of which. We went into White Plains so i could get some toiletries, and then i also got his Valentine's Day gifts and a poster board to make his birthday card. So when we got back, i spent an hour making it. Afterwards, we got ready some more. By 11, Amber was completely trashed. Well, earlier that day she told me a big secret. Something bad had happened to her, and she told me not to tell Corey. Which i did not. Since she was drunk, she decided to tell him though. As the clock truck 12 this happened. The start of a series of awful events. Long story short, lots of crying commenced. For hours. Anger from Corey. And crying. Crying hysterically from Amber. Josh and Sarah had arrived earlier as well, so we were all trying to help both of them. Nothing was working. So we decided, now at almost 1:30, to try and go out. We managed to find a party, but it got shut down 10 minutes in. Unfortunately, right after, Amber was too cold and upset. So she was crying more, and everyone decided to go back to the dorms.
Now, i am normally the first person to be there for a friend. Friends come first in my life, always. However, at this point in time, my anxiety was at an all time high. I was so beyond upset and furious that the second night of my birthday weekend was ruined. And not by Corey and i this time. Plus, jealousy got in the way. Since what happened may not have even happened and wasn't even that big of a deal, yet Corey spent all his time devoting to her. And i know i have no siblings, none the less a twin, but to me i feel/felt their relationship is just a little toooo close. So when everyone decided to go back, Corey expected me to go too. Butttt i said no. I didn't want to waste my outfit, none the less the fact i'm already out in the cold. Plus, she had him and 4 other people helping her. So i stayed out while they went back. Yes it was selfish. Yes it was very much not like me and my character. But i did what i needed to. And sadly, i had the most fun i had all night in the half hour i was alone. Or rather, with other people. I found my other friends, got to a party, had a good time. Even had a run-in with the cops. Granted, it didn't last long. But it was still fun. But all good things come to and end. Corey came, still plastered, to get me.
We got back to the dorm. He could tell i was pissed/upset, but i guess he also was at me. So we didn't speak for probably two hours. After chit chat with friends, talk about Valentine's Day, more of me crying and being upset, and almost everyone else falling asleep, i decided to go to sleep. I went to lay down, and Corey laid next to me. At this point he had sobered up, but i wouldn't even cuddle with him. No kiss, nothing. He asked why..and i knew he would be upset. Again, long story short. He kept begging so i eventually caved and told him. As i assumed, he got pissed. Especially when i brought up my kind of incestuous thoughts about the two of them. Whoops. He stormed out of the room. Came back. Repeat cycle. This went on about 3 times. Until he decided to finally stop, and start rubbing my back (really??). Apparently that calms him down. However, as great as it feels, it pisses me off at the same time. Because you rub my back, everything is supposed to be better? No no no. Anyway, he did that. And then i'm quite positive we talked things out until about 8am.
Things still didn't get resolved though because when we woke up, on his birthday, he got up and did stuff, whereas i just wanted to sleep. So at 11 he got up and went to Dhall with everyone, but me. Then hung out in Crossroads for a few hours with Amber and other people. All while i was in bed, being ignored. I decided to do homework instead of crying all day. He came back, still ignoring me, and did homework as well. Amber left in the afternoon, so we all said goodbye. Corey and i still didn't speak for another couple hours. Eventually, i don't remember how, everything got resolved. I gave him the card i made him, finally. In which he cried and apologized. I just hope he meant it. I apologized as well, since i was being a little selfish and mean. But i had good reasoning. At 12am that night he wished me a happy birthday. Me, knowing it would be a crappy one, still tried to stay positive. We ended up going to sleep semi early, seeing as i had a 12 hour day the next day. And well, since this is quite a long blog, i'm going to start a new one summarizing my week...
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