Cannot believe...

That i finally messed up. I know we were only supposed to post once a week. But i really wanted my every day goal to occur. But now that it hasn't, my new goal is to REALLY make it occur. Well, i want to brief what happened the last several days, but my memory is foggy. I guess going to class really doesn't help memory. Anywho, i left off when? Monday. Tuesday i had plans. Movies..etc. But i am a lazy bum. And since i had no class, i did not get up. Corey went to class and came back. We napped. Possibly had food. And then had to go to that ridiculous lecture series. Granted, i did enjoy the lecture for the most part. The speaker was great at what he does and it was interesting knowledge. But why we HAVE to attend and why i HAVE to write a paper on it is beyond me.

After that happened, we walked back in the freezing cold to the dorms. And then i spent some down time with Corey before i headed off to work at 10pm. I enjoyed my 4 hour shift at the library, got some work done, and walked home with Corey and Ali at 2am. We got back, and based on my normal routine, i assume i did a bit more homework, and then stayed up until around 4 watching True Blood (i'm halfway through season 3 finally!). Wednesday i had class at 2:30. I went to that, got out early, and then i'm assuming either got food, or took a nap. After that i went to our amazing class. Once class was over, i met up with Corey and got some work done. Then i went to an LGBTQU meeting at 10.

The meeting got over at around 11:30, at which time i headed to the library to meet Kerry and catch up on her life seeing as she's my best friend. Due to my stupid anxiety and jealousy issues, our talk turned into me having an attack. And being super upset at Corey all night. Because his cousin was over he proceeded to ignore me for 2 hours and avoided confrontation. All the while i was having an attack through headphones and homework. We wound up staying up that night until almost 6am. Got to see the sun partially rise. This is remember clearly. All due to discussing it and working it out like we always have to. I ended up shaking and crying after we went to bed, thank you anxiety, so obviously he figured out something was wrong. And as upset as he was at me for not telling him, and for the stupid reasons as to why i got upset, he still tried to comfort me and calm me down. So i talked to him about my fears and worries and that was that. Thursday was my mommy's bday. I sent her a package several days earlier so she got that. Glad i surprised her.

I had class that morning, came back, napped, and then had a doctor's check-up appointment. After that i went to class at 4:30. After class i was going to go workout, but as i have explained, i am a lazy bum, and it was cold. So i did some working out in my room. And then proceeded to go back to work at 10pm. Repeated the same cycle. Came back at 2am. And stayed up all night due to not having class Friday. However, i was supposed to work 12-5. Taking someone else's shift. So i got dressed and ready, only to find out there was a lack of communication. So someone took the shift already and i got ready for nothing. This frustrated me immensely, so i angrily went to the mailroom, got heavy packages from my mom, and carried them back to my room. After opening them and getting birthday stuff, i crawled into bed with Corey, and slept until around 5pm. Yes, lazy bums, i KNOW. I wasn't hungry, so him and Tierney got up to get food. They left, and i went to Starbucks to meet Kerry before she went to work. We had to catch up again. Now, Starbucks is far. And i was there for awhile.

By the time i got back, Corey and Tierney still weren't back. It really wasn't jealousy or concern setting in, but i wondered what was taking them so long. I asked him what took so long when they got back and got no answer. So i asked again and he yelled a very not funny joke about them having sex. It would be funny, if i could trust him and he didn't already mess up BIG TIME once. So i grabbed my laundry and stormed out of the suite to do it. I came back, and we did not speak more than 3 times to each other for over 4 hours. During which time he (kindly) switched my laundry over for me, my best friend Danielle arrived to visit, and i did homework. Also, when i went to get my laundry, he went to get his, so we ended up talking about it and having a huge bickering match. Which led to mucho anxiety for me and i had an attack. We got back upstairs, tried not to bring Danielle into it, but she knew something was wrong. So while he was ignoring me and playing videogames, i told her. Then her and i did homework and got ready to go out. I was pissed, so i was ready to have a good time. He said he wasn't going out. Didn't bother me much. I needed a girls night out.

Well, we ended up eventually talking about things, right as i was going out. Because he was deciding to maybe go out. Which led to me telling everyone else to go ahead without us. We'll be there soon. Two hours and waste of alcohol later, Corey and i are still in my room talking. Everyone comes back. It's 1am. We attempt to go out. And everything was shut down. Awesome. So then i just went to bed because i was so upset. The next day we slept until about 5:30...yeah..do not know why. Again, lazy bums. And then a LOT happened. Far too much to even begin right now. So i will leave that for tomorrow night..or possibly the next since tomorrow night (tonight) i'm celebrating my birthday. Ta ta for now!!!